Frustrated AND sick

I just had such a long entry in here and it was so good, but No, because of some stupid time thing on this computer it had an error updating, so I lost the entire thing. Now I'm really mad. Being sick doesn't help. Cough*Blow Nose*CoughLet's try this....so I'm sick, man watch this attempt at recreatng the good entry I just had be so much more feisty because of my mood now. *hehe* So, I wanted to rant and rave last night after work about George because he is really upsetting me. We leveled on the same aisle almost the entire night after we closed and NOT ONE WORD was spoken. NOT ONE WORD! Gosh, I don't understand how I made it seem like I was ignoring him and like I thought I was too good for him when he was the one who didn't talk to me on this one Monday night. He gave me a great big hug which I absolutely loved when I came in to work with him when I hadn't been working during the week that much but then after work he didn't say anything to me, and I'm not one to talk to you if I think you're mad at me. Garf, it just upsets me so much because he and I were SUCH great friends. I liked him alot, and still do, but try to tell him that and he says "She's just saying that so you don't think she's mean." How do I respond or act to that? I really really don't like it when people are upset with me because it makes me look at myself and think there is something wrong with me. That is never fun. And the more I think about it, the more upset I get about it, and so I end up not knowing what I should be thinking about and so I stop thinking. That happens with some other things as well. I never know what to say or do or think, and then I try to figure things out and I end up just stopping. I think that is a product of my indecisiveness, I always think I made the wrong decision no matter what. Well, not always, sometimes I can just tell I made a right decision, like just how it feels "in my heart" or something, dealing with anything not just relationships as the word heart sends people to focus on that idea. *hehe* I just don't know, but I sincerely hope I can get certain things figured out and know I made the right decision. Now this may not be specific, it could just be general, so no one get paranoid by what I'm saying, ok? *hehe* My dream last night was so weird Sarah, Luke, Shaun, and George were in it...my brother and mother of course and some other people that I supposedly "knew" in the dream, but don't in real life. It was way weird because I guess we were in Publix but then at George's somehow and getting shot at and then we were swimming? I dunno, all I know was I was being extremely careful with everything *hehe* I don't know why I put that in here, but oh well, what a delight you get to read it. Well, I'm gone for now to do some thinking-or attempt anyways-PS: I MISS MARVELOUS MANDY~Awesome Aims~