It's rather late

Being awake a 1 in the morning is so delightful when you're sick. All because I took that damn nap earlier because I'm sick. I woke up around midnight to many interesting IMs. One in particular...I was blocked tonight, isn't that delightful? And what is even more delightful was who blocked me. He even took the time to comment on my journals, isn't that sweet? I thought so, too. Anywho, I just want to say thank you for some people that were talking to me tonight and being really super great. I hope you know that I care a lot for you and am so glad we are and have stayed friends. I hope to continue the friendships for many years to come. Those guys really help me through anything, and I hope that I am there for them like they are for me. I dunno, it just seems that lately so many people have gotten mad at me and stopped talking to me. It made me feel like crap earlier, but now I'm not in such a "oh I suck with friends" because I know that's not true, it was mucho silly for me to think that anyways. Does an S belong at the end of mucho? I never took Spanish, I'm a French gal if I do say so myself. With how many friends I've lost in my short 17 years, you'd really think something like this would not bother me anymore, oh wait, I forgot, it doesn't. Just kidding, I'm not going to lie, it does bother me because I like people and I like being liked by people. But who doesn't, I mean honestly, who sits there and thinks to themselves "let's see...who shall I make hate me today? How many enemies can I get?" that's right, no one. I'm really getting over this, but just the fact of the matter kind of gets to me, but I guess there isn't much I can do about it, except for what I've already done, which I'm still not sure about what I did exactly...in both cases!! Oh well, whatever happens is going to happen and all for a reason. I read Katie Stern's journal tonight about friends and I mos def agree with her on a lot of it, especially the "there are too many people in the world" bit to care about what the people that don't like you are doing or saying. I know who I am for the most part, although there is still tons to learn and do, and I know who my friends are for the most part, but that all comes with time I imagine. We were also talking about this summer, our friend Hilary is coming down to visit from PA, and I'm so excited because normally I'm not here when she comes to visit, but I'll be here for like 4 days before I leave! We're all going to get to hang out and that makes me tres excited *see? there's that french* wow, I can't believe it's been two years since I've seen her. I'm sure it doesn't seem like it to her, but I miss her so much. We used to sing at lunchtime and just hang out and be silly and it was great! I really hope we have fun together! HI HILARY! If she reads this that is. *hehe* Ah, feeling better more and more as each moment passes and I think of those I love and those that love me. Oh yeah, and if I really bother these people that have problems with me, then it really is for the best we don't talk, I don't want to hurt anyone or inflict physical or emotional pain on anyone here. That's just not my style. *hehe* Both will be better off without me anyways, I mean I'm no big deal or anything. I'm just me, and I guess that either isn't good enough for some or just isn't their cup of tea. So I talked to my sister yesterday and everything like I mentioned earlier, and she said something about seeing her friend, Keith, and I really thought he would not be there this summer while I was there. I was just fine with that too, because he just seems like a baby and I'm not sure if I wanted to deal with him or not, but according to Danielle, he will be there for like 3 weeks, which is almost the entire time that I'm going to be visiting. Also, he said something about wanting to come down here with her when she comes down for the weekend! How silly is that? Why would he want to do that is my question, but she answered it because I actually asked her, and she was like "probably to get out of Lonoke" which made sense. Now, don't get me wrong, he's an ok guy and all, but last summer he and I had like a lil "summer thing" or were "together" or something like that, and I just don't want him to be all "Hey Aimee," and try to get with me again, but I don't think he will. Either way though, it doesn't really matter because I wouldn't let him get with me again, once you get something you thought you wanted, you figure out you don't want it anymore...and that is mos def the case with Mr. Keith. Ah, isn't that also delightful? I just wanted to update and stuff I guess, I didn't really have anything else to do and I don't feel like going to bed, but I'm gonna go clean my room now. Talk to ya later. Thanks again you guys::wink::Have a great week!PS: My grandma leaves Thursday but I think she's going to move down here, isn't that exciting? Yep, I thought so too!~Awesome Aims~